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"Ella, we need to talk-;" He starts to say to me in a hushed tone. He's never this quiet when he comes home, he's always talking non-stop about football, to the point when sometimes I can't get him to shut up.
"Talk about what? Babe, what is it?" I asked him, my eyes never leaving him.
His blue eyes move to meet my gaze, there's a pain in there, one that scares me.
"I'm sorry.....but this-;" He says waving his finger between us before announcing,
"it's not working anymore-;" letting my eyes linger on him in shock for a moment, my eyes began to fill up.
"What do you mean?......where is this coming from? -;" I cried and took a step back before adding "This morning you were fine, all smiles and telling me you love me! What changed for you?" My voice growing louder now because I'm hurt and angry.
Because of the way that he's wording his words, he's acting like things have been horrible for us, for ages and like he's finally walking away from a relationship like we're this horrible couple together.
When that's not true because we haven't had a fight in months and when we do fight it is over normal stupid things, that couples fight over.
Our normal is us laughing, when people see us, they tell us that they've never seen two people more in love than they have when they look at us. So, all of this that he is saying to me right now, it makes no sense at all.
"I can't explain it, I just started to see that I can't be the person I have to be and do the things that I want. And be with you, at the same time" He said to me and then goes back to packing his bag. Letting the tears fall down my cheeks, as I just watch him pack his stuff and his words repeating in my head.
"What are you talking about? Do you even understand what you're saying, 'cause you are making no sense at all to me" I screamed towards him.
Because if he's going to walk out on me after five years together. Then I sure want a better excuse than that. He owes me that much, after everything I've done to support him and his stupid dreams.
"I have to focus on football and that's all. That's the most important thing to me and I'm so close to NFL. But I can't be with you, not when I'm this close to it, I need to stay focus with no distractions" He snorted to me like it's the most natural thing like I should just accept it and let it go.
"Wait a second so let me get this right, I was okay to keep around for five years. Through high school and this last year, but as soon as you get close to NFL, I'm a distraction. Do you even love me or were you just messing with my feelings this whole time?" I shouted at him, he stops packing up his stuff and looks directly up into my eyes. And he locks his on mine.
"I did love you, Ella, probably more than I have anyone else in my life" He sighs, wiping my tears from my cheek.
"Did? As in the past tense, when did you stop Scott?" I whispered to him, Scott zips up his bag, and finally takes a long sad look at me.
"I mean I do... it's just I'm sorry, okay but this is over;" He cries and grabs his bag,
"Goodbye Ella" He mumbles softly, before turning around and walked out the front door, once again but this time for the last time.
Once I hear the door click again, the apartment is full of silence. He never even looked back at me as he walked out, how could he do this to me?
Taking the test stick from my pocket, and slowly sat on the edge of the bed. The tears fully falling from my eyes now, how I am supposed to do this by myself? I know I can because my mom did, but I never thought I would ever have to raise a child on my own.
Ella
"MOMMY! MOMMY!" I heard the voice of my four-and-a-half-year daughter shout towards my bedroom. Feeling a smile on my face, as I pull on my last shoe.
The day Remi was born was the best day of my life, because she's my whole world, I've never felt so much love until she was born.
After Scott left me, I made the choice to move back to San Diego. I told my mom about my situation, and I told her that Scott left me without any knowledge that I was carrying his child.
At first, I thought that she would be mad at me because mom she always wanted something more for me than what she ever had.
I mean my mom gave birth to me when she was eighteen years old, and my so-called dad pretty much didn't stick around long enough to know me.
So, when I broke the news that I was carried baby at nineteen, I expected her to yell at me, be mad at me, or even disown me.
But instead, she just pulled me in for a hug and told me that everything was going to be okay. And she was right it was okay because, in the end, I became a mom to a beautiful baby girl.
And it was hard raising her all by myself, but I did it, actually, I'm still doing it by myself and I wouldn't change it for anything.
In the last few years, I've finished college, I run my own yet exceedingly small but successful business as an event planner that has incredibly good clients.
When I was starting up my business, I decided to move to Los Angeles to do that. And even though San Diego is only an hour or so away, my mom knew that I would need help with Remi, so she moved with me.
I don't keep her a secret, but I can't afford to have her out in the spotlight either, I want to protect her from the truth about her father, protect her from the Vaughan's family name.
She's only four and half years old, she deserves to be a normal child whose name is not known to the press and the media.
Snapping out of my thoughts and placed a plate of crown-shaped pancakes, in-front of Remi and took a seat facing my daughter, with my own pancakes and a cup of coffee.
"Mommy has to work late, so grandma is going to pick you from school. And watch you for a little bit" I say to her, Remi looks up from her half-eaten breakfast and smiles at me.
"Okay, mommy" She replies and goes back to eating her pancakes. Feeling a smile on my face, she really is the best thing in my life. After everything that happened with her father, she was the light in it all because my daughter is my world.
Pulling out of my thoughts and walked into my office building, I rent a small office space in a busy area of Los Angeles, and I have one person working for me.
This is Amber and she's my personal assistant also a friend, honestly, this business would not run the way that it does without Amber.
Because my business hasn't really been up and running for that long, I chose to not hire a lot of staff, for me, it made the most sense to do what I could myself and hire at least one other person with business experience to help with the day to day stuff if I was out at an event.
And eventually, as my business grows, I will hire more people one day, but for now I and Amber have it running smoothly.
"Your nine: Am is waiting in your office for you," Amber says as soon as she sees me, nodding my head as she hands me a cup of coffee. Throwing her grateful smile and headed off to my office with a tired sigh.
Today started as a good morning, but after breakfast, Remi didn't want to go to school and kicked up a fuss, which made me late and traffic was a nightmare.
Walking into my office and looked over to the people who were in there.
"Hello, you must be Amanda and Nora Michaels, I'm so sorry I am late" I apologized to them, the last thing I need is my business on the line and my professional image being questioned.
"No, it's fine we were early, I guess excitement took over," Nora says to me, nodding my head with a smile and waved for them to take a seat.
"So, it says in my notes that the event would be an engagement party, is that correct?" I asked them. Thinking back to the information Amber took from them when they booked the appointment.
What I know is that Nora is Amanda's mother and Amanda has recently gotten engaged but, in my notes, it doesn't say to who, or what day they want for the event, I think Amber must have forgotten to get that information. But it's fine, I can just get the smaller details later.
"Yes, it is," Amanda says with an exciting smile on her face, the sparkle of happiness in her eyes. I love planning events for couples if it's an engagement party or an anniversary party, even if I do draw a line at weddings.
But that said it's absolutely amazing to see all that love and joy inside of a couple's relationship. It sorts of makes you want it a little, I mean don't get me wrong I'm happy being single and with it just being me and Remi.
But you do miss those small moments of being in love, the warmth of someone's arms around you at night. How was your day? Conversation, I guess sometimes you forget just how lonely you really are.
"Okay normally when planning a party for a couple, I tend to get to know them and learn a few facts about them, how they met, how they are as a couple-" I broke off and looked over at my calendar, which was located on this month which is early-July.
"What date were you looking at?" I asked, Amanda looks at me lost in thought before turning her eyes back to me.
"For the 8th of November," She says to me, looking over at the calendar.
"Okay, it is a little shorter notice than normal, seeing as we're talking only a few months away. But if we get to work fast, we should be able to pull it off in no time" I say, it may seem like lots of time to some people.
But with other events and other clients that I have, it's a tight squeeze for me. That said the Michaels family are very well known and this could really put my business out there.
"Yeah sorry about that, but you're the best in the event planning business. And the 8th is sort of our anniversary, which is why picked that date" She says,
"So, to start I would really like to meet with you and your husband to be. And just get a vibe of what you both are looking for in the terms of food, color scheme, a location that sort of stuff if that's okay?" I said to Amanda.
"Yeah that's perfectly fine, Oliver is free tomorrow morning if that works for you" She replied to me, nodding my head at her.
"Tomorrow at eleven works for me, we can all meet here or if easier I can come to you both," I say, sometimes it is easier for me to go to clients.
"Don't be silly we will come to you, but I'm pretty sure at some point, my future mother-in-law will invite herself along, so I apologize in advance for that" Amanda said with a hint of annoyance in her voice, well most brides don't like their mother in laws anyways.
"I'm sure she's lovely" I responded with a smile; they both look at me with a raised eyebrow.
"Yeah well you won't be saying that when you meet her, that I can say for sure"
Letting out a small snort of laugher, just as they both do the same.
"Anyways, in that case, I will see you tomorrow. And you have my number if you have any questions at all" I announced and stood up with a smile.
"It was nice meeting you, Miss. Snow" Nora Michaels says to me also with a smile.
"Please call me Ella, and it was nice meeting you both as well" I replied softly back. They both nodded and smiled before making their way out of my office.
Sitting back down at my desk, a sorter deadline than a year is a harder job it means early mornings and late nights.
Which I hate because it means I spend less time with Remi and I know that she understands that mommy has to work, but she's four and a half, she shouldn't have to go to bed without getting a bedtime story from me, or she shouldn't have to wake up to find me already gone, without telling her good morning, I'm just lucky I have my mom to help me with Remi.
But on the other hand, this is also my job, something I worked hard to build, and it is only a few jobs and then after that my forces will be on spending more time with my daughter, I mean it's a simple easy engagement party I've done plenty of these, it should be a walk in the park.
Ella
Normally I wouldn't do that or let clients come to my house especially with Remi here. I just don't have a choice in this case, my kid is sick, and I want to be here with her.
But this Michaels account is also a big deal, and there's not a lot of time to get everything done, on top of all the other events that I have going on in the upcoming months.
Pulling myself out of bed and started to get ready, and slowly getting lost in my own thoughts. I think it's times like this when being a single mom is the hardest. Because your trying to juggle everything that you have going on in your life alone.
And not having someone there to lean on when you're having an overwhelming day. Sometimes it's really hard doing this all by myself, I will admit that because I'm not a perfect mom I don't think anyone is.
But I'm a good mom, who loves her child so much, that it physically hurts me to see her ill and upset. I guess at times like this I really wish Remi also had her father here with her too.
Snapping out of my thoughts and made my way into Remi's bedroom to check on her. Pushing open the door, to see her sat up slightly cuddling her teddy bear.
"Morning baby girl, how are you feeling?" I ask her while taking a seat at the end of her bed, Remi looks at me sadly for a second.
"My tummy still hurts mommy" She cried softly to me, feeling my heart break a little as hear my daughter's sad voice say to me.
"It's Okay, I promise it will get better soon honey. Listen mommy is going to work from home today, while you get some rest in bed for a little bit and then when you're feeling better, we will watch a Disney film together" I say to her,
"Can we watch the little mermaid again?" Remi asked me in a small whisper but with a smile.
"Of course, we can, I'm going to get you some water and make you some dry toast. I need you to try and eat something for me" I replied and then begin making my way out of her room, just as I hear Remi say from behind me,
"I love you mommy" stopping in my tracks and turned around to look at her with a sweet smile on my face. "And I love you, to the moon and back and the stars above"
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Closing Remi's bedroom door softly, after she had a little bit of food and water she fell right back to sleep. I hate seeing my child like this, so much I just want her, to be her happy bubbly four-year-old self again.
Pulling out of my thoughts as I hear the doorbell ring, walking over to the door and opened it with a professional smile, just as my eyes land on Amanda.
"Hello Ella, sorry we're a little early I hope it's okay? Oliver is just taking a phone call, he's almost done" Amanda says to me, shaking her head smiling in my doorway.
"It's perfectly fine, I am really sorry that we had to meet at my home. I promise you normally this is not the case for me" I said reassuring her. That I don't always see my clients at my house like this at all.
"Honestly, it's fine, I mean we don't mind at all;" She was cut off by footsteps, letting my smile drop just as I hear the familiar voice say,
"I'm sorry about that-;" looking up to the sound of the voice a little taken back and in shock as my eyes lock on a person from my past. A person I once knew and care for like family.
"Ella.....Hey, how have you been?"
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